Kapuso TV host Iya Villania-Arellano shared her feelings before the birth of her and Drew Arellano’s baby number 5, Baby Anya. According to Iya, she couldn’t help but feel scared before her delivery, an emotion that is often overlooked.

In a post shared by Iya on social media, she linked to her photo, which did not include Primo and Leon, as well as her husband Drew (because he took the photo). Iya said that while the photo contains happy memories, she felt a deep fear in her heart, not knowing what the outcome of her birth would be.

“Although this pic is missing Primo and Leon (okay, and the hubs coz he took the pic), I remember savoring this moment with fear in my heart not knowing how delivery might unfold,”  she said. She’s not a negative person, but she can’t help but think about the possible bad things that could happen.

“I’m not a negative person but I couldn’t help but fear the possibility of not making it back home to these guys or of any other possible misfortune if you only knew how much I fear delivery,” dagdag pa niya.

Iya also shared that she knows she’s not the only one who has these fears. According to her, her mother also has concerns about childbirth. When Baby Anya arrived and things that she had hoped would be easy and positive happened, it gave her great relief and gratitude.

“If you know of all the possibilities during delivery then you too would understand,” aniya.

While he was delighted to be touched and to have the opportunity to witness Anya’s arrival, he felt a deep sense of gratitude.

“Seeing and holding Anya and knowing we’ll be reunited with her very excited siblings soon brings me so much relief and gratitude,” saad pa niya sa kanyang post.

She points out that despite all the worries and doubts, she has experienced God’s grace in every moment of her life, especially with her children.

Iya also mentioned her feelings of gratitude to God for the blessings and life bestowed upon them.

Sinabi niya, “God truly has been so gracious and faithful and I can only hope that I live a life that will honor Him.”

He stated that he will not take it for granted and looks at each passing day as an opportunity to be grateful and happy.

In the end, Iya laughed and mentioned her hormonal state and the effect of endorphins from post-delivery, which was accompanied by a wakefulness and a deep sense of relief and gratitude.

“Excuse the fragile hormones. I’m running on endorphins from post delivery, mixed with sleeplessness and a whole lot of relief and gratitude,”  Iya added, giving a lighthearted tone to her thoughts.

This entire post by Iya is a profound reflection of her vulnerability and strength as a mother, and her deep gratitude for all the blessings that come to their family, including their newest member, Baby Anya.